Saturday, November 18, 2006
hahaha! :-D since long have not been updating liao le wor. . today is going to be a very sad post! :(cried! coz me and dear got some problems, the problems lies on me la. .
it had been 2 days since dear had hug me tight, talk to me nicely, hold my hand and many more!
this 2 days we just hardly talk, can say like he doesn't care about me! :-/ just couldn't help it but cry and cry when my heart feels soo hurt!
today then i get to know why he had been soo cold shoulder towards me. .
1. coz i never thought about his feelings when i do things.
2. i spent too much money.
3. coz of a fu*king bastard! arghh! :-x [my ex-boyfriend]
i know i am just dumb dumb dear, is not that i do not want to think about how you feel but is just that i am more of a straightforward person! this is me! that's why i always make people get mad at me! including my parents too! i really wish to pamper myself! i craved for the shopping day for very long liao le. . get the stuffs that i wanna get! i always do foolish things without thinking. .although i didn't get all but i am still very happy, coz i get some of the stuffs that i wanna get. i am sorry again i only think that i want to pamper myself and never think that i spent just too much money! :-/ really i do not know why you thinks that i care for that fu*king bastard! i can say and dare to say that i hate him to the core. if you don't believe you can ask yvonne or even my grandmother! i hate him! i really do. .
and is not that i purposely want to sit with wei kang in the bus. same goes to my dumb dumb brain, i never think soo much! my tummy is just soo pain to even think of anything! if i can choose again i won't go the same step, but i really had learnt my lessons!
note to dear,
dear i don't know whether you will read this post or not! but no matter you will read it or not i still will post! coz if you never, i will call you to read! hehehe! ;)winK! i am sorry la, dear dear! don't angry me le okay? really i don't feel good. . i didn't mean to do all this stuffs to make you get soo mad about me! arghh! :-/ dear, i really love you. loads// but i do not know why you can't feel it! you told me in the past you can't feel it! but i still really do not know what to do! dear, now i am like soo damm lost! can you guide me? bring me back to your side okay? i know you will. coz you just love me and you will always stand by me no matter what! right?
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
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